On Becoming What I Hate

I have long detested when people write as if they're THE authority. The illusion that, because they've read enough books (written by previous people), taken and passed enough exams (written by previous people), and/or have a few years of what could be called practical experience, they can be completely correct in their ideas. For none of us have been around long enough to even make the most basic of sense out of this whole cosmic mess we created from within His unified creation.

And oddly, I think that's exactly where I find myself, deciding it's time to write as an authority – to become what I hate (now that I finally love myself). It's not because I want to proclaim myself as such (I've not been suicidal for some time now and prefer it that way) but because the things I am seeing and hearing are all reminders of things I've previously seen and heard (and thrived on but then ignored in response to my own insecurity and fear). They are all reminders that His Spirit is speaking, and that reminder always stops me in my tracks because I resist listening often.

So, please forgive me if I now speak as an authority without any man-made credentials to make you stare quietly in awe at how impressive I am.

“Are we beginning to praise ourselves again? Are we like others, who need to bring you letters of recommendation, or who ask you to write such letters on their behalf? Surely not! The only letter of recommendation we need is you yourselves. Your lives are a letter written in our hearts; everyone can read it and recognize our good work among you. Clearly, you are a letter from Christ showing the result of our ministry among you. This “letter” is written not with pen and ink, but with the Spirit of the living God. It is carved not on tablets of stone, but on human hearts.” - 2 Corinthians 3:1-3

And I ask one other thing, reject my ideas with the most passionate of hatred if what they produce is not life, because that is my entire driving force.

“For John the Baptist didn't spend his time eating bread or drinking wine, and you say, 'He's possessed by a demon.' The Son of Man, on the other hand, feasts and drinks, and you say, 'He's a glutton and a drunkard, and a friend of tax collectors and other sinners!' But Wisdom is shown to be right by the lives of those who follow it.” - Luke 7:33-35